On revisiting core beliefs...
Wednesday, February 15, 2012 at 07:35PM "A decision is a conclusion based on everything you believe about yourself."
~ A Course in Miracles
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I stood in a lineup outside my grade two homeroom. I wore my sister's hand-me-down faux leopard fur coat and matching hat. I felt pretty and glam!
Then one of the older boys in the line next to me looked me over with disdain and called me a showoff with my "fur coat"; another threw in that we were rich because we lived in a house made of brick, also with disdain.
Then & there I decided that dressing well and being rich - or the semblance of - meant being scorned. If I wanted to belong I was to lay low and commiserate. I was six years old.
Fast forward to this past Saturday. That's when this memory came up, 33 years later.
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During the past few weeks I've been working through Barbara Stanny's Overcoming Underearning and I've encountered several similar scenes like the one above, all of them forming core beliefs related to money, how much is enough and how it's supposed to be earned (in case you're wondering, it's to be earned through toil and unhappiness).
I find this utterly fascinating. Who knew I was so impressionable?
Thankfully, when it comes to core beliefs it's entirely within our power to change them when they no longer serve us.
So one by one I am. Thirty-three years later. And it feels wonderful.
Reader Comments (2)
Isn't it amazing how those memories just come crashing through? I remember instances in elementary school just like this- everyone knew who did or did not have money, and I think back now that a lot of what was said about a kid was more than likely a direct repeat of what the parents had said in passing (about that child's family or parents).
It *is* amazing how the memories re-surface! Even more amazing is how they usually come up at the very moment they're supposed to. : )